I've been trying to ditch my medication for good and I feel absolute shit because of that.
I've already been using this specific medication for a couple of years (I've used it for my depression and social anxieties) but I finally feel like I could probably be fine without them, or I'd like to just try.
When I first started to use these meds I didn't really know anything about them, I just knew what they were going to help me with. They were a big help, there's no way I can deny that, but I'm also really horrified about the withdrawals.
I've tried to lower my portions but that's really no help.
It's crazy, I feel mostly okay inside my head, but physically I'm a wreck.
I feel really dizzy all the time, like I'm gonna faint or fall down. Sometimes I feel like my feet are sinking through the floor when I'm walking. My mind is a mess, I seem to drift away, I don't understand that people are talking to me but I'm not thinking anything either, I'm just not there.
Because of all this mess, I'm a bitch. I get irritated SO easily, I'm rude, I yell, I get angry. And I hate this the most.
If any of you have gotten rid of your medication (that causes withdrawals) for good, how the fuck did you honestly do it?
But yeah, sorry about me opening up so much, I have a one TV show to share with you.
My new favourite show is Mr. Robot. This show follows a young computer programmer who suffers from social anxiety disorder. It might seem kind of boring, especially if you're not into hacking and nerdy stuff, but trust me on this one. I've only seen like 3 episodes (there's 9 episodes so far and the last episode of this season is coming in 4 days) but I know that I'm gonna love it. I don't know what I can say about it without ruining the experience for you. I knew basically nothing about the show, what caught me was the rating of it on IMDB (9,1). I'm not the only one who's seen a lot of similarities with this and Fight Club (they even play Where Is My Mind by Pixies at some point of the show) and that's a good thing.
The only actor that probably everyone will know is Christian Slater. The young cast is pretty unknown and I love that about it. I'm just pretty sick of seeing the same faces all over again.
The main character Elliot, the hacker dude, is so adorable in a weird way. He has these big bug eyes and has a stupid grin on his face all the time.
I don't know what to say, I'm probably not the best person to talk about this show since I've only seen like 1/3 of it, but I just got to share it with you. Really, check it out, even my introduction isn't that good.
I also wanted to share my hair with you, I'm kind of blonde! Most of you probably already
follow my Instagram, but if you don't, here's my hair!
I feel pretty great with it actually. I've never had anything like this, I've always had fairly dark hair.
This hair color happened because I was supposed to dye my hair green (I don't know what I was thinking, I would've looked like a 14-year-old emo girl) so we had to lighten my hair. I kind of fell in love with it, and now I really love it.
Some of you probably think that dark hair suits me better, but I also love the change of it. I've been a brunette for so long that it became boring,